just for fun.

Here I am with my favorite little siblings: Kristen, Daniel, and Timothy.
Don't worry - Daniel had just performed in the musical White Christmas, hence the stage makeup.

christmas decorations.

Christmas has officially exploded at my parents' house.  The day after Thanksgiving is always decorating day - a day when the basement clears of the red and green storage bins, the fall decor comes down, and ornaments, snowmen, Santas, red cloths, carolers, wreaths, stockings and lights fill the house with Christmas spirit.

On the Christmas tree in the family room, are dozens of homemade ornaments.  In fact, there are no traditional colored Christmas bulbs on the tree.  Among the branches lie construction-paper hearts with photos of us as children, bulbs into which we put paint and shook them creating a marble effect, stars made from felt and glitter, candy canes made from beads and pipe cleaners, and so many more personalized ornaments.  This Christmas tree is beautiful in that it holds decades of memories on its branches.  We recall the stories of the ornaments as we put them up.

The best story is of a round, cardboard cut-out with a picture of a candle glued to it.  A hole at the top allows for a ribbon to put it up, even 29 years after it was made.  This particular memory hails back to the year my parents got married.  Too poor to buy ornaments, they made their own out of whatever they had.  Each year, they hang this one up together and remember their life together.  Years and years of memories are found in that small circle.

Happy Winter!

It was coooold today, so I got to wear my cute new purple winter coat.

And thus begins the winter season.  Brrrrrr.

Amazon is offering an album, The 99 Most Essential Christmas Masterpieces, for $1.99.  Let me tell you, this album is wonderful.  Not only do you get 99 songs for $1.99 (amazing!), but it includes symphonic wonders, beautiful music that we sometimes forget about during the holiday season as we usually get lost in the obnoxious, repetitive (yet lively) songs of Mariah Carey and N*Sync.  Here is a link to the album offer.

Enjoy the start of winter!

establish my steps.

I have always been a problem-solver, a fixer, and a planner, so when I find myself in a place of such uncertainty, my instinct is to make plans.  NOW.

It has always made sense to me:  Make plans for the future, dream big, figure out how to get there, and take the steps necessary to ensure that the goal is reached.  Suddenly, however, I don't know what that big dream is, thus there is no goal.

Living a life of faith means taking the steps when God shows them.  Proverbs 16:9 says "The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps."  I need to just take those steps in faith, knowing that God will lead me where He wants me to go.  He will establish my steps, regardless where I think they will lead.


Oy.  Lord, grant me faith.

always watching.

As I pulled up next to a police officer today, I did as I usually do:  Tense up a bit, check to make sure that my phone is put away in my purse, stay behind the crosswalk, and be extra cautious.  My driving isn't normally bad, and there would have been no reason for the police officer to pull me over even if I hadn't been nervous and extra cautious of my driving.

Yet, I took this little momentary thing and worried about it.  I changed my actions instantly because I thought I was being watched.  But are we not always being watched?  Why does knowing that a person is watching elicit an improvement in behavior, while knowing that God is watching merely makes me nod my head and say, "yeah, I know"?

Let my focus remain on the One thing that does matter; on the One person for whom our actions have eternal consequence; on the only One who is worthy of our praise, affection and adoration.

food therapy

I got off of work early today, and I immediately went to Whole Foods for their orange chicken.  Organic chicken, no MSG, and brown rice, served with Hot and Sour soup.  A no-guilt way to eat completely unauthentic Chinese food.  Mmmm :)

let Him help Himself to us.

Let us be reminded day after day that God certainly is in control.  Through some wise and unwanted, but necessary, words from a friend, I came to realize that there was no mention of God in my last post, which inspired the thoughts behind this one.  While Wednesday night's post is certainly a humorous one with huge exaggerations, it reflects an attitude of despair and of faithlessness.

Oswald Chambers writes:

Is He going to help Himself to us, or are we taken up with our conception of what we are going to be?

"Is He going to help Himself to us"?  Is He?  Will I let Him take all of me and move me where He wants me to be?  Show me who He wants me to be?  Even in those questions, I simply beg for answers about the future.  But who am I now?  How is God using me right here where I already am?  How is He helping me to grow?

I have been so focused on the future that I have not been enjoying the everyday.  Since when did every day become another chance to worry about and dread the future?  What happened to hoping and dreaming?  To radical faith and obedience?